Another scanxiety day for me - first MRI since double mastectomy, looking for local recurrence in chest wall and internal mammary lymph nodes.
I hate cancer. Two years in, there’s no less anxiety, or fear, or anger. It’s not always front and center, but it’s always waiting in the wings.
Every scan raises the executioner’s sword over my head - will today be the beginning of the end? How quickly will the sword fall?
Hoping the radiologist takes a long lunch and doesn’t get around to this one today. I don’t want to know. I want to say “Not today, cancer” for just one more day.
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